Core work

Doing core work with cramps. Yeah talk about fun! Thankfully yoga core for beginners wasn't too bad. Now I'm going to go curl up and relax. Ouch! But yoga so far every night though I didn't want to last night or tonight but once my set time rolled around I got up and did it. 

Day 2

Birthday is 4 months away. I promised myself almost two years ago I'd lose the weight. Ha only gained more. 

Anyways I signed up for DailyBurn yesterday. I am starting with beginners yoga for now. Been having rib issues so I need to ease into it. Did a video yesterday was pretty easy since it was just sun salutation which I am very familiar with. Just a lot of holding down dog which my neck and shoulders frowned on. Hey month of August I did that and a few other exercises DAILY for three weeks straight. Then the rib dislocated. Yeah no yoga with that! 

 Today I did a 33 minute video. More leg and core work. Was only able to do two of three rounds but did the rest even with modes. 

 Now it is read with ice on lower back and shoulders-neck before I pass out. 

9 weeks until TPF

It's been two years since I've been at my smallest. I've gotten engaged, been rear ended in my car, gained all my weight back, got depressed, called off the engagement, let life seriously stress me out, gained more weight then I've ever had before, could care less about something's in life, so tired of saying ugly things to myself which I've never done before. 

 

That about sums all that up. It's been an interesting two years and that doesn't even include the year before that, that was totally emotional!

I'm so tired of not looking in the mirror. I've never been a vain girl and spent time in front of a mirror. It's always just been something to do quick glances at to check to make sure nothing crazy is going on with me. (I'm a no make up, natural is awesome kind of girl, including the crazy frizzy curly hair). But for the last several months I can be very mean to myself when I do my quick glance. I ignore the mirror now. Been ignoring it for a long time but the self verbal abuse is more new. 

Anyways I am ready to quit that. Which means the weight must go. So since I will be going to TPF again I thought I might as well see if in the next two months I can get down to the jeans I had bought for the last time. Size 14. I'm just curious if I can. It is NOT the goal. Right now I am a tight 18 but loose 20, have not had to buy a pair yet in that size. 

I have given myself permission to get a little obsessed with healthier eating and working out. Just blast myself the next two months. What's the worse that can happen? I quit? That's nothing new. Have pain from working out? Hell I'm in daily pain cause of this weight! I get sexy? Bring it! I actually want sex? I'd enjoy having that interest back! 

So need to pass out now that that I can have energy to get up and workout instead of doing it when I get home. 

Another one bites the dust. Haha. 

Walk

Went walking this morning. Still trying to nail down a schedule to workout. Boss is good with me coming in later or leaving during the day. Would have done a class yesterday but coworker called in who does my job, so had to cancel that. Could have done a class today but it was a HIIT kind and I don't think I'm up for that yet. So I went walking instead. Only did 1.25 miles but it is a start. 

Joined a fitness club

I saw one of the fitness places by me had PiYo so I looked into it. Seems they were looking for a few select people to be part of some year long program they are offering. One year free coaching, training and nutritional help. Just needed to be a member. So I put in my info and got a call back. Did a phone interview and was selected. I go in Tuesday for all the details, measurements and all that fun stuff. 

I did this so that I can be accountable to someone. I was thinking because I'm only accountable to myself and so far that hasn't worked that I need to try something new. They are going to do the whole before and after thing.

 Only thing I'm hesitant on is that it will be high impact classes they want me to do. Depending on how many classes they want me to do, site said two minimum, maybe I will do PiYo at home since that won't be one they want me to do and only offer at this location twice a week. Well as part of the program. I will learn more in a few days.  

Better eating

I have not been exercising but I have been watching what I eat. Been doing salads and sandwiches so I will stop eating out so much. Haven't stop sodas though. Baby steps. 

PiYo plus Total Gym?

I put off a week thinking a family member would be starting this week and we could do it together. Yeah not sure she will be doing so. 

Anyways I was thinking I could start the day off with a quick Total Gym workout using the 6-8 minute videos, that way I could get some weight training as well. Good way to get the blood going for the day you know? Shall see!

I really need to get on the healthy eating. Okay I just need to start making my food again like I used too. The cooking and baking still hasn't come back from the depression year I've had. I want to but just not enough to get up and do it. 

Yes in the last year I have been fighting with some good depression. My weight I've noticed spiked during this time because I just didn't care. But now I do care and I want to do something about it. 

I do need to sit down and write out why I want to get in better shape. I have a lot of blank wall space I do believe I will turn into a motivational wall. That has helped before!

So here is to another week may it be better than the last.