Silently losing weight - Noom

So for the past few months I have been silently slowly losing weight. I've gotten a few jobs where I move around more. Love it! Also bought a blendtec blender for smoothies. Lasted about a week before I slacked off.

But.... As my weight is slowly going down I get more motivated to lose more. I have been under 200 for two weeks now. I didn't believe my scale the first week. Well scale is doing the -/+ a few pounds but I would say that I am 200 pounds now instead of 215. I will take that!

I joined Noom a week ago. Doing the free 14 day trial. I don't believe in weighing myself everyday but I did it except on the weekend. Its no big deal to do first thing in the morning and I have accepted my weight a long time ago. Slightly annoying to log food when they do not have half of the things I eat so have to manually enter instead of just taking UPC scan.

So it seems that my big picture goal is: To lose enough weight and strengthen up enough that I am not in daily back pain. Why? Because I don't have to live in pain.

I picked last Friday(?) to have a small goal of just eating more fruits and veggies. So I will throw in a handful of spinach in my morning smoothies. That is my small goal this week: Daily smoothie again. I've lost weight doing this before and wasn't even trying to.

I have my binder for my calendar so that I can mark things on it. I was mostly using it to make sure I use my inversion table but I will start adding my mini goals to it.

I probably wont continue on Noom. I don't have $150 for a 6-month plan right now. It does teach good things though. I like the daily reading and quiz it gives you.

Just thought I should write something. Really wish the blogger app was still available on iphone. Would make it easier.

JM Day 1

So did 30 Day Shred Level 1. Well tried.

So weak! But I tried to keep moving even if that meant I was walking in place or doing slow high knees. Better then nothing.

Oh wow push ups. yeah they are a no go for me. Cant even go half way when on my knees. I lock out real quick. But second round I just did then on the wall standing up.Have to start somewhere!

My hip has gotten super tight. It is even hard to do yoga now. Its been a slow build but that is what I get for not going to the chiro like I should. I will be changing that this week. [on a day I think my truck will make it] My left lower back said screw you from the beginning. Doing the hip circles was um fun.

So lots of ice tonight and inversion table. I am just so tired of looking in the mirror or even just out of no where calling myself a fat cow. And lots of other things. Not helping my depression or self esteem. Did you know once you get to a size 10 in undies they all turn plain briefs? I have struggled to find boy shorts in my size. Probably need to go online and find them but I am picky about what I buy and like to see and feel them before I buy them. Not only that but I no longer think my ass is sexy. I need that sexy back!

I got this.. until tomorrow. I'm honest.

30 days of May

So slight challenge to myself to work out for the next 30 days. Whats a month?

Shall see.

Here is my plan:

Have several of Jillian Michaels DVDs. Going to start off with this plan so that I have variety. Doing the same thing over and over will make me to bored. I am also going to throw in some of her 6 week six-pack as well. So far not sure if I will do one or workouts a day. Even if it is one of her videos and walking. playing by ear. Will take measurements and photos one day this week when I have help. Joys of being single, no one to help you.

No leg muscles!

I have never enjoyed doing squats or lunges. Kills the knees. Well at this point it cant kill the knees if its the muscles that are struggling now. Trying to do walking lunges is so funny when I try not to wobble. Hey at least the workout had me laughing at myself and downing a ton of water.

So today I decided to start BBG. Have had it for almost a year and just never did it. So told myself last week that I would start this week. And I did. I am doing the pre-training as I know I need it!

Today I only made it through one circuit of each. I did not go back for round two. At that point I could barely stand as I did not short the workout. I could have not gone down as far on the squats and lunges but even with what I did was barely half of one. I know my leg muscles are weak.

So will work it and just keep on going.

Bikini Body Guide - Kayla Itsines


Bought a Fitbit Charge HR about two weeks. First day I forgot to put it on this morning. Thought about putting it one before I worked out but I was not going to let myself get distracted. Go figure, dont get to see what my HR was during the workout. Ha.

Oh yeah. Did the workout even though my lower back and spine had been hella painful all day. Leg is still tingly but so far so good!! Could have used it has an excuse but I didn't.

Core work

Doing core work with cramps. Yeah talk about fun! Thankfully yoga core for beginners wasn't too bad. Now I'm going to go curl up and relax. Ouch! But yoga so far every night though I didn't want to last night or tonight but once my set time rolled around I got up and did it. 

Day 2

Birthday is 4 months away. I promised myself almost two years ago I'd lose the weight. Ha only gained more. 

Anyways I signed up for DailyBurn yesterday. I am starting with beginners yoga for now. Been having rib issues so I need to ease into it. Did a video yesterday was pretty easy since it was just sun salutation which I am very familiar with. Just a lot of holding down dog which my neck and shoulders frowned on. Hey month of August I did that and a few other exercises DAILY for three weeks straight. Then the rib dislocated. Yeah no yoga with that! 

 Today I did a 33 minute video. More leg and core work. Was only able to do two of three rounds but did the rest even with modes. 

 Now it is read with ice on lower back and shoulders-neck before I pass out. 

9 weeks until TPF

It's been two years since I've been at my smallest. I've gotten engaged, been rear ended in my car, gained all my weight back, got depressed, called off the engagement, let life seriously stress me out, gained more weight then I've ever had before, could care less about something's in life, so tired of saying ugly things to myself which I've never done before. 

 

That about sums all that up. It's been an interesting two years and that doesn't even include the year before that, that was totally emotional!

I'm so tired of not looking in the mirror. I've never been a vain girl and spent time in front of a mirror. It's always just been something to do quick glances at to check to make sure nothing crazy is going on with me. (I'm a no make up, natural is awesome kind of girl, including the crazy frizzy curly hair). But for the last several months I can be very mean to myself when I do my quick glance. I ignore the mirror now. Been ignoring it for a long time but the self verbal abuse is more new. 

Anyways I am ready to quit that. Which means the weight must go. So since I will be going to TPF again I thought I might as well see if in the next two months I can get down to the jeans I had bought for the last time. Size 14. I'm just curious if I can. It is NOT the goal. Right now I am a tight 18 but loose 20, have not had to buy a pair yet in that size. 

I have given myself permission to get a little obsessed with healthier eating and working out. Just blast myself the next two months. What's the worse that can happen? I quit? That's nothing new. Have pain from working out? Hell I'm in daily pain cause of this weight! I get sexy? Bring it! I actually want sex? I'd enjoy having that interest back! 

So need to pass out now that that I can have energy to get up and workout instead of doing it when I get home. 

Another one bites the dust. Haha. 

Walk

Went walking this morning. Still trying to nail down a schedule to workout. Boss is good with me coming in later or leaving during the day. Would have done a class yesterday but coworker called in who does my job, so had to cancel that. Could have done a class today but it was a HIIT kind and I don't think I'm up for that yet. So I went walking instead. Only did 1.25 miles but it is a start. 

Joined a fitness club

I saw one of the fitness places by me had PiYo so I looked into it. Seems they were looking for a few select people to be part of some year long program they are offering. One year free coaching, training and nutritional help. Just needed to be a member. So I put in my info and got a call back. Did a phone interview and was selected. I go in Tuesday for all the details, measurements and all that fun stuff. 

I did this so that I can be accountable to someone. I was thinking because I'm only accountable to myself and so far that hasn't worked that I need to try something new. They are going to do the whole before and after thing.

 Only thing I'm hesitant on is that it will be high impact classes they want me to do. Depending on how many classes they want me to do, site said two minimum, maybe I will do PiYo at home since that won't be one they want me to do and only offer at this location twice a week. Well as part of the program. I will learn more in a few days.  

Better eating

I have not been exercising but I have been watching what I eat. Been doing salads and sandwiches so I will stop eating out so much. Haven't stop sodas though. Baby steps. 

PiYo plus Total Gym?

I put off a week thinking a family member would be starting this week and we could do it together. Yeah not sure she will be doing so. 

Anyways I was thinking I could start the day off with a quick Total Gym workout using the 6-8 minute videos, that way I could get some weight training as well. Good way to get the blood going for the day you know? Shall see!

I really need to get on the healthy eating. Okay I just need to start making my food again like I used too. The cooking and baking still hasn't come back from the depression year I've had. I want to but just not enough to get up and do it. 

Yes in the last year I have been fighting with some good depression. My weight I've noticed spiked during this time because I just didn't care. But now I do care and I want to do something about it. 

I do need to sit down and write out why I want to get in better shape. I have a lot of blank wall space I do believe I will turn into a motivational wall. That has helped before!

So here is to another week may it be better than the last. 

Heat headache

I don't have ac in my vehicle so sometimes I over heat on the way home from work. As the evening moved on the headache has gotten worse. I didn't want to work out and make it worse. So today will be my rest day and not Friday. I'm going to call it a day now. 

Lower body day

I am so relaxed but muscles are shaky at the same time. It is a very nice feeling. I am doing the workouts at night for now. That way I can do shower and fall into bed. Will see how that works since currently I am having issues getting up at my normal time right now. 

Day two of PiYo is Define lower body. Really need to get a yoga mat or something. I pieced together the square block exercise mat that I already have to make a long mat. Kept coming apart. Tomorrow I will either get a yoga mat or bring some really strong tape home with me. It's a good thick mat and that helped with my knees and wrists. So even with a yoga mat I'd still probably want to use it. I used to do yoga before bed and this reminded me of that but kicked up a few notches. Not surprised that my right hip and shoulder got the most tired and sore. 

I definitely have some work to do. I struggled going along with the video I will admit. But I know I will build up the strength and get better!!

Been a year... not surprised

Ha another year has gone by. What has happened in this last year? Oh another 20 pounds. Gained.

Body pain? Oh it used to be at tops around a 5 and not daily. Now... oh yeah daily 5-8. Knees and lower back.

I've never been this heavy before. Its interesting, that's all I can say. Well I can say I am sick of it!

So to get to the top of my BMI range I'd have to lose about 70 pounds. I did the math on that today and it blew my mind!! But then to me it has never been about that number. It is more about how I feel and how I perceive myself when I look in the mirror. And lately that mirror and my clothes have not been my friends. I am out growing my fat clothes as I call them.

So my solution for now....

PiYo by BeachBody

"PiYo isn't like standard Pilates and yoga classes that make you hold long, intense poses, or lead you through dozens of repetitive, microscopic core movements. PiYo speeds everything up—including your results—by introducing you to dynamic, flowing sequences that can burn serious calories at the same time as they lengthen and tone your muscles and increase your flexibility.
With every action-packed PiYo session, you can burn excess fat and sculpt and define your whole body, as you minimize the aches and pains that can come along with high-impact workouts. No matter your age, no matter your body type, PiYo will help give you dramatically visible, incredibly beautiful results."

Did day one which is a video explaining the moves and the correct alignment of the body.

All my joints are not going to like this but I know it will get easier with time.

I am also going to start using my Eating for life by Bill Phillips book again. Do love the recipes. I have done it a few times and if I stick to it then I always lost 2 pounds a week without exercise, just food alone.

At the end of PiYo you get a free shirt. I want that shirt!!!

TIU Bikini Series Week 2

I really don't remember what I did Fri/Sat/Sun.

Ahh Friday I did the abs video. Very interesting!

Dont think I did anything Sat/Sun since those are my days off.

Monday: I did a ten min boot camp video. Should have done it twice since when I went to do the ten min kickboxing video I so lost interest and just stopped. Then I did the ab Bikini series for the day though I only did one round and couldn't do two of the exercises. But by then I was way too hot and just wanted a cold shower. Also during the boot camp video I tweaked my ankle and did not want to aggravate it.

TODAY: Walked 1.43 with my cuz who is also doing the challenge. We decided to get together every Tuesday to do so.

I really need to buy me new shoes and a good ankle brace. Little less than half way through the walk my ankle started hurting. I forgot the support brace I normally wear. Wont be doing that again. Not surprised it kicked in with the tweak I did yesterday and no support. After sitting for a bit and relaxing it feels better though cant bare down my weight on it. Was driving home and I braced on a fast turn and almost hit the curb when the flash of pain distracted me for a sec. Lol. Oops.

Thinking about doing the Booty Video then the stretch but will see about that here in a bit.

Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday Bikini Series

Tuesday. I did the video. Man does my face get RED when I work out. Crazy. My arms are pleasantly sore from yesterday!

Wednesday. Wow sore in a very good way. My joints arent so sure about all this. Skipped the exercise :( Just didnt feel up to doing it. Sinuses are kicking my butt! Oh the back of my thighs you are burning so good every time I move.

Thursday. Did the video but only once. Felt I might have been able to do another so that I could get some cardio time in but I didn't. Well watching the videos I had to go my pace. Maybe one day I will be as fast as they are. And had to mod a few. As my MRI showed I have no good muscles in my lower back supporting my spine around the herniated discs. Its just black. I need to start working them so that they come back and help support me.

It is fun to try to juggle work, a boyfriend, and working out. It is a challenge that I am liking.

Tone It Up Bikini Series day 1

Tone it up just started another eight week series for summer. Today was day one. I only did the upper body workout. No cardio and I didn't do the challenge. I will be doing that tomorrow when I have the time.

Dang my arms are weak! I haven't done anything in a while to really get the muscle back after the neck issue that I had two and a half years ago. True it took over a year to be kinda normal and I still have issues from it. I went along with the video with three pound weights and my shoulders, neck were already slightly pinching by end of round one. By round three I was standing up straight to help with the pain and I lowered the reps a bit. But I will remember this so in right weeks I can do again and see how far I've come. If I do the eight weeks. I know me but maybe I will stick with it this time. 

Lets try again

Yes I know I only lasted almost a week last time I got in the exercise kick. It felt good and then wham just did not care anymore.

But my birthday is coming up in a little over two months. I want a good birthday this time. Lets just say my last several have sucked with the last year being the worse. So maybe I plan on doing something fun this year since it will land on a Friday.Make a weekend of it or something

So tomorrow maybe I will go to the store and buy some chicken and broccoli. And eat better. The last two weeks my eating had been bad and Ive been eating more fating food or just not eating. That is not a good thing. So work on the food and trying to wake up at a good time so that I can do some form of workout in the morning.

Motivation quote for the day:

“Life is like photography. You need the negatives to develop.” - Unknown

Day 5, 6, and 7

I had to take a break! My lower back really kicked in and made me very uncomfortable.

Today I was going through my videos and seeing what I can do. Found some good ones for next week. Should be fun. I am still trying to eat right and only have one soda a day if that.Still trying to get my good mental state back where it was last week.

I need to this week get 'before' pictures and measurements. Maybe later today I will do a video.

Day 4: 10 Minute Solution, Stretch

Woke up just feeling empty. Didn't go to work. Took a 5 hour nap. But I knew I would still do some kind of workout if nothing else today.

So I did tonight the Ballet and Yoga parts of 10 minute Solution and then I did the Slim in 6 Slim and limber. Wow my legs did not like some of those moves. They are still tender from Monday, my ankle didnt like some of the ballet moves either.

Now time to do inversion table, shower and go to bed.